"Well it winds up
Really such a shame
But why not
Take a chance
Everything's a game
And it don't stop
Nothing's gonna change"
The Offspring- Hit That
I think its 2am, i have stopped caring, and time has ceased to exist, and now just crashes in a blur of papers, educational videos in languages i fail to comprehend, and endless research on the internet. I think last time i watched a full tv program was 2 weeks ago.
As an iraqi, you are told don't even think of staying here and studying.
I still want to though.
More stupid talking of how iraq might be spilt up. Stupid Biden. Stupid Patriosm. Because of a lack of voice of obambee about gaza, iraqis naturally have lost their faith. Suddenly the old men in the tea cafes have began to realise the jewish roots of obamee the wicked. Yes, he is on holiday in Israel. Yes, Iraq will be split.
Momentarilly i have given up arguing for the voice of reason. I'm just going to let the tidal wave of anger and depression of Iraq hit me face on.
Forget that, I changed my mind, Iraq does have hope. Really Really. I am probably going to end up screaming non stop at the next depressed person I speak to, who spews up some more whinings. Maybe I dont want to be realistic. I am in living in the same country as you, and yes i heard the bombs, and the shooting. Yes, i do realise every iraqi intimatley knows generator mechanics. Yes, that yellow liquid is water. I actually feel tempted to drink it to end such conversations...
Instead of spending more nights thinking while staring at the ceiling (I would win an olympic gold medal for it), I am going to make a list, with positives and negatives. Because everything keeps changing and I struggle to keep up
Choice number 1:where to finish high school/secondary school/college
-BIS (good-close, no need to move, family, familiarity. bad-bombings, unknown syllabus)
-Amman Baccaleaurate School (good-has a volleyball team. bad-students)
-Halab International School (good-syrias social life. bad-syrias social life)
-Undecided Sixth Form/College(UK) (good-teaching. bad-everyone's taller than me)
Choice number 2:where to go to university
-One of the Baghdad universities (good-i get to say "i went to baghdad university". bad-dress and moral code)
-One of the UK universities (good-politically active student unions. bad-ridiculous fees. In all fairness, i can comfortably live off the fees in iraq for many a years)
-One of the Amman universities (good-teaching. bad-parents prefer uk/german university)
-One of the German universities (good-large enough to lose yourself in forever. bad-my german skills are nowhere near good enough)
Hmmmmmmm, of course, i can just start my own gang, start more sectarian violence, and live off the dirty money i make in a luxury house. *Picks up klashnikov*